FLIGHT OF THE BEHEMOTH

This is fucked.

I'm going to MA, bye bye!

I got a lot of failure to put behind me.

As gratifying as real hard work is, it sucks. I've enjoyed working on cars thus far, but the routine is getting so depressing. I'm working on getting back into school and I hope I can get accepted again after fucking up so much. Beth is in New York and we can't really talk much. She met Chris Rock this morning and apparently he was kinda rude (which doesn't really make any sense because, to me, the only funny thing he ever did was CB4. Dogma was alright, but not because of him). I hope my life gets on track so I can stop stressing and worrying so much about the future.

Things that rule:

Elizabeth Nicole Garcia
The Fire The Flood
Lipton Green Tea
Pantera
Black Sabbath
the new Warriors album
Rage Against the Machine
the more popular grunge bands (Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, Alice In Chains)
Matisyahu
Bas Rutten
the new One Dead Three Wounded
Led Zeppelin
Wolfman Pizza

I will be house-sitting for the Garcia's while they are in New York this weekend, but The Fire The Flood is playing Saturday night at Bobby's house. Everyone should figure out how to get there and come.

Hey kid, listen: I'm trying to tell you about the human condition--you are your own black hole. Hey kid, listen: I'm giving depth to your flat world vision--you are your own black hole. Disown what you can't control. You are your own black hole. Silence, can you hear it? Its the sound of a man without spirit and the walls keep crumbling down around a self-made victim. I got this rope to pull you up, but I can't save you if you won't grab a hold. I can't save you if you won't save yourself. I tried to heal your heart. I tried to sail your shipwreck in the dark. This is the fine art of swinging and missing. This is the fine art of sinking and swimming. You see, it takes time to find a balance in such things. You'll learn the fine art of crossing burnt bridges. Old friend, fight physics. Forget the cynicism in my lyrics. You and I will laugh one day at our foolish mistakes. With my bare hands, I will dig you out. But I can't save you if you won't grab a hold. I can't love you if you won't love yourself. Hey kid, listen. Just don't suck me in.

Got home from the beach Friday and went to Beth's because she came home from Boston early, hung out all night, stayed over. Saturday, Mom and Dad Garcia went on a double-date with Beth and I to a Knights game and I had a blast, it was probably one of the best nights of my life. Sunday we dyed eggs, got our Easter baskets and had an egg hunt. Prom is this Friday and I'm so ready!

In Dean!

The new Saves the Day cd is so good. Although my lack of progress leaves me feeling empty, I've got a love that fills me up. I hope I can get back in school and do well.

Sometimes taking off can open up your eyes
To everything that lies in your heart
'Cause that's when you miss your home
And the trees seem a little deader
I think we're getting back tonight
Would you care if I came over?
I've missed you about three weeks now
I'm dying just to taste your lips
Could we stomp around your backyard
And wreck our clothes in the mud?

add my new band

www.myspace.com/mrmrrock

I like going to the beach with my woman...a tot, but now I miss her a lot and I don't think I'll last until next weeknend. I finally love my life.

The ocean brought you to me
Drifting, naked, singing
Did you know that I was waiting?
I knew all along, I knew
I knew you would come
I had this feeling
I still have a feeling
I have a feeling that I've never felt
It hurts and it burns so hot
It makes me melt
You make me melt
I bought you a dress
You made me sing
Through fields and streams
Through mountain and valley
You made me scream
From the bottom of my heart
At the top of my lungs
"You are the reason that the sun rises
You are the reason that the birds sing
You are the reason for waves crashing
They brought you to me
You are the reason for everything"
I wrote that.
Do you like it?
I hope you do.
Most of all,
I hope it makes you you.
I can't think of anything that I'd rather it do.

I got sunshine on a cloudy day. When its cold outside, I've got the month of May.

Oh, and let me just tell you, its un-fucking-believable.

My girlfriend is so much better than yours! I'm looking forward to a downpour!

RAMBLE ON!

Things have been pretty perfect lately. I'm really glad that all of the friends that I left behind for awhile there have let me back into their lives. I've been spending a lot of time with Chad, Johnathan and Josh lately, and it has just been really great. Tonight Josh, Chad and I went to eat at a fancy restaurant and just had a blast. I love those dudes with all of my heart. I'm at Chad's at the moment and he is chatting on the phone with his lady friend whilst The Dream watches me type this. Oh yeah, Beth and Katrina are good too.

...and it was right beneath my nose the entire time.

I am pretty sure that this Summer I am going to try to get in a youth outreach program and be a missionary of sorts to see if seminary is something that I really want to do.

rock bottom

Everyone who doesn't hate Ground Zero should be there on Saturday for Cambridge and Harpers Ferry. Come and watch me walk around with a smile on my face. Hell, I may even let you scratch my back while I pur like a walrus. Today was a great day!

I'm still not down!

There's plenty of time to ruin my life, so why start now?

After a year of college I have managed to obtain 3 credit hours...Great.